mercykeyes's blog

Sigh, yes, I missed a couple of days. My excuse? Work. Working three nights a week, which are 12 hours long, 7pm to 7am, doesn't leave much energy to getting on here. So - I predict weekly three day skips. But I will try to continue this from there.

Tonight, what's to report? Many things, but I don't feel like discussing neither. I'm in school for web design and I need to create the perfect theme for amberswann.com. Right now, I have an extreme generic face up - but I can't keep it that way forever. So I'm keeping Daz open to work on something that I hope comes out the way I imagine it. Its a publishing, writer site, with its primary theme of interracial literature. Every story I write, or that we will publish, will have to have interracial lead characters. There arm plenty of same race/culture writers, books, stories, etc. However, as time goes by, people are more and more crossing those tracks into something new. I'm the result of that, so are my children, and history is filled with it.

That means, we'll do anything of "quality" that depicts people from a different race, or culture.

Time to bring that out in a more positive vein than what has been for so many years. I hate that interracial anything, is dominated by the ugly porn world. As if loving someone of another race, is some how connected to perversions, and secret fetishes. Bull! People are people, and fact of the matter is, you like what you like - you love what you love. Just because a man is black, doesn't mean that's what he has to like - love. Opposites attract... always has. Contrast and difference is exciting to most. Granted, such relationships are a greater challenge, especially trying to merge two cultures, beliefs, traditions, ideas, social baggages into one. But it can be done, and is being done - more and more each day.

That's why I write what I write, because its what I am, and what I believe. Because I'm black, does that mean I can only have chocolate ice cream? I don't particularly like chocolate ice cream. I prefer vanilla, its what I like. And because someone is white, they can only have vanilla ice cream? No way, too many flavors to be forced to have only the one.

Not what God intended -( this for those that believes there is one - I do )- otherwise, there would have been multiple sets of Adam and Eve, which would make us all a different kind - instead of just one set, which makes us all the same kind. Thus his rule of procreation, kind with kind ... two totally seperate, different kinds, cannot reproduce. Can't put a cat with a dog - a bear with a tiger - an elephant with a whale.

Mankind with mankind ... no matter what color, culture, or race, can. There's a reason for that - we're all ice cream, just different flavors, not different kinds. My apologies for the mixed metaphors... *wink* I was told, to just let it flow - well, there you go, that's my reason. Just think, I started out not wanting to discuss anything. Funny... 

Okay, here's to letting go and letting it flow. LOL - day three in this blogging world. The weather... yeesh. Global warming. *sigh* Are we in trouble? I try not to think of it, but how can I not? Just so that all know, while I live in England, I'm not native here. I was born in the USA - Greenville, Mississippi - grew up in Chicago, lived in Texas and then Wisconsin before meeting my husband and relocating to England. In all the places I've lived, there has been winter. Truth be told, I'm not a winter person. I get cold very easily. I do not like being cold! *shiver*

However, as much as I hate the snow, blizzards, hassle of warming up the car, scraping the windows and cleaning off the snow from your vehicle, having your guts tie in a knot when the roads are icy - hate it all! Even so, I know that seasons have their reasons. Winters help keep calm some of the things I hate about summer... INSECTS!!! A mild winter means this summer - mosquitos, ticks, biting flies! Yew! So okay, bring on the winter - I will endure. Now - we face something even worse than winters and insects... global warming. The previous mentions made me nervous, irritated me at times, but this - frightens me. I'm frightened of it. And the question is - what the hell do we do? Are we too far gone, to reverse things even a little? *sigh*

2007 - what do you hold?

In the part of England where I live, expect cloudly, dreary days. Rain, mist, moisture - now and then, the sun will peak through teasing all the inhabitants here. Summer in Northern England? Yeah right... blink and you'll miss it! Well the last three years, they've had a lot more summer days. A few reaching into the 90's. Hmmm? And now, this winter - no snow yet. Has only dropped below 35 two maybe three days... I think I'm wrong there, maybe 1 or 2 days. Hmmm?

Oh what I would give for a good sound snow storm. For snow capped mountains to be once again covered in snow. To go out and scrap, shovel and clean off the snow. *groan* Something has to give. We as humans, are screwing up the one and only home we were given to live on... we all better stop, take stock and start doing some reversals ... before we hit total melt down.

 

Okay... here I go again. Day two, and I am really trying hard to keep this up. What's the issue today? Pit Bulls, Rottweillers and other dogs that have it in them to kill people - children. At the same time that I'm horrified about the recent news, I'm really pissed off! Okay, New Years only 3 hours old, there was a 5 year old little girl, getting mauled to death by the family "Pet" in Merseyside England. I happen to be in South Yorkshire, Sheffield area and I'm telling you, I've had it with these kinds of tragedies! Where are the parents and grand parents natural instincts and fears when it comes to this? Scenario - the parents went out to celebrate - ringing in the new year, leaving their five year old daughter with her grandmother. Her uncle owned a pit bull. Now get this - this animal has been reported before as to having problems - whether that be in attacking other animals, or people - not sure. The incident is still under investigation.

Problem with it is this - why did the grandmother not - LOCK - the dog away while her granddaughter was there? How many times must we hear over and over about children being attacked before it makes us go, "Hmmm, just to be on the "SAFE" side - I think I'll lock the dog outside." Well yeah! Why don't you! After all - the child was not raised with the dog. The dog was not raised with the child. She wasn't always present, and so the dog has no bond with this innocent child. So why didn't the grandmother think - I better not take any chances? Not only that - fire works were going off in the neighborhood! That alone makes dogs nervous! Why didn't the parents think to say, "Mom - can you lock the dog up tonight, just to be on the safe side, I don't think its a good idea to have him loose in the house with "Child's name" because they're not used to each other." Why was that not stated? Enforced? Insisted upon? Because all they could think about was heading out to party the night away - that's why!

In conclusion... grandmother - mother - father - Uncle - should all be prosecuted for 2nd degree murder and child endangerment, as well negligence! Yep.. I said it... and I mean it.

In the end, that baby died in a way that no child should - because parents weren't being parents! They should suffer ten times to the degree that she did!

Let me tell you now, bloggin is taking me somtime to get the hang of. Not because I have nothing to say, its just that I have so many irons on the fire, that the time necessary to do what I'm doing right now, is not always there to do this consistantly. So I'm starting off this January 1, 2007 with an entry and I hope that as part of my new years resoluttions - LOL - yeah right - that I don't drop this as I have done the other resolutions... time will tell.

Today - its Monday - and I'm feeling pretty darn good. This is what I hope to accomplish this year. Finishing my Web Design course, thus gaining my diploma and certification in that. Another thing, is to get all four novels into paperback - Princess Ces'alena - Gold Raven - Family Reunion and Aphrodisiac. Get another job hopefully in web design so I'm no longer subjected to the horrors of working for the RSPCA... too many animal horror stories and I've simply had my fill now.

That's it - end of this entry and we'll see if I'm back tomorrow with another.

:mmm: Today, is a day of anxiety. I'm against a deadline. I should have had this episode of my online soap drama completed by today to get to my proofreader and it is not even half done! UGH! So I just dropped in here for a break. Uploaded some new images to my gallery. And then, I'm going to get back to writing. When I get up to the wire like this, it gives me the jitters because I'm on an adrenaline rush to get it done. Speaking of which, I better get back to it.

:[D: Well - its a new day. I was awakened by the birs and Okie! Our Border Collie who does this every morning about 5:45 to 6:15. We have two other dogs as well. Coco and Jaz. Jaz is the big mama bitch here. She is a cross between a Boxer and a large Staffordshire Bull Terrier. She's 11 years old, and don't take no mess off of the other two. She sleeps until she's ready to get up. Coco, 9 months old, little bitch, is a litte Jack Russell Terrier mix, that is, mixed with everything in England and it shows. She is very keen, sweet and always busy into something new. We saved her from being drowned in a sack when she was teeny tiny! Okie, the border Collie came to us as well a few weeks ago, she's 9 months old just like Coco, and smart as can be. Badly abused, and loves my hubby and the attention he gives her. Yes, Jaz is jealous and will go for her, but not bite - she just growls and chases her to remind her that she is the step-child here...lol. Anyway, Okie is full of energy! And she is up every morning like clock work at 5:45. She loves to play with Coco, however CoCo is not interested in getting up that early. So - Okie, stands outside of their box bed - which is built up high off the ground in their own little out room, they sleep in that bed together - so cute. She stands and barks up at CoCo to get up. CoCo doesn't want to get up to play, she's cozy and warm in bed and finds no reason to get up. So she lays there and looks at Okie like she has some mental malfunction, eventually turning away. Thus, forcing Okie to jump up there and start pulling her on to get her up. This causes CoCo to bark back, I often believe saying something like, "Get the heck out'ah here - you moron! We're sleeping, go chase your tail or something!"

LOL... that's what I think she's saying. Needless to say, CoCo and Jaz aren't up. But I am. So its time to use that time to get to writing. Another Episode of Man and Woman awaits. Ciao until later!

Let me tell you. What a day, I came home and found that my computer had taken a nose dive due to some incompatible software! I have too too many files to mess around with having to clean wipe - but today - it almost looked as if I might have to. 

Went to Dr. Web's and everything is now being fixed. Thankfully. It's Saturday and I have two days off before work again. Gonna get some writing done. Play in D|S a bit - then off to bed to rise fresh and early and add another episode to my soap drama.  

:-o Opened my email to see this sitting there and thought, hmmm? What is this. Investigated and here I am, pretty excited about it as well I must add. Now the question is, while it is a good thing, how fair will it be. You see, I'm going to pick a small bone with Daz over the fact that they realy do ignore some good art rejecting much of it as I've submitted some nice art and only had ONE accepted. But that is no where to be found anymore.

:| Bone to pick with efrontier or Curiouslabs - I highly, highly resent that they have created a line of things for "Miki" and some other odds and ins, that is only P6 compatible! What's up with that?!!! Yet - Daz Studio goes on to consistently created 3D content that works in Poser 5 - 6 and D|S! I highly resent it! To repeat that! Because by making things that says Poser6 ONLY! In red I might add, they are for one, losing out on sales - because I spend on content like a mad woman! Have seen things there that I wanted, but I haven't bought it because it has said, Poser 6 only! I can't be confined like that! I have Poser 6 - but I prefer using Daz. I get work done with Daz, in Poser 6 - there's always some kind of mishap or message that pisses me off and I close it and don't open it again for about a month. To repeat the same cycle once again on something else. S0 - its either - by the content and use Poser 6! Or - skip the content and continue on using Daz and spend my money elsewhere - which is exactly what I do.